Once Upon A Shadow, Deep Inside A Dream

If I Cry... 10-11-02

If I Cry...

You look at me with no emotion, thinking of different things,
You look at me showing no compassion, no reasons why.
I wonder what you would do if I reacted, what problems emotion brings,
I wonder what you would say if I lose control, if I cry.

Times of lonliness seem to last forever, they go on and on and on,
And days without smiles seem grayer, they depress me, I can't deny.
But you don't smile anymore when you're with me, the joy is gone,
You just sit and stare and think of someone, not caring if I cry.

I am crying, here inside, in my own private place I weep.
I am crying, if only to express what is now missing, whats gone awry.
Despite my feelings of loss and defeat, I realize that soon this secret will no longer keep.
Yet will you remain ignorant, standing to the side of me, if I cry?

These words should burn something into you, something you should see,
And even if you don't love me anymore, if you don't desire me and know not why,
I will sit here only a moment longer to tell you the truth, I will express who I am, me.
The one thing I ask as you listen to my words is stay, even if I cry.

Stay, even if you lose your sense of purpose and direction.

Stay, even if you realize my true intention.

Stay.

Please stay.

Even though I cry.