A Teenage Journal

Christmas Day

Dear Journal, Well its christmas! yey! My family celebrates christmas on christmas eve, I dont know why but i like it anyway but the only problem about it is that all my friends celebrate it on Christmas Day not eve, oh well im used to it. I rang up my best friend today to say to him Merry Christmas and hoping he asks me to go over and get my pressie from him, I already gave him my pressie to him last week! I dont care anyway. He will proberly give me it for my birthday.
Anywayz at 2:00am all of my cousins and me went to my other cousins house that went on a holiday to South Australia and this guy Nick was with us aswell because he is friends with my cousin, Manuel. I love him,(Nick) he doesn't know that and he never will. I havn't told any of my cousins or my friends, well only one friend, his name is Jamie and i tell him everything and he tells me everything.
I have known Nick since I was in grade 5 and I fell in love with him last year at Manuels 21st birthday party, i almost kissed him at that party, but i couldn't, i know he wont want me.
So i didn't want to make a fool out of myself. I promise myself that i will become more prettier and lose weight for him. That is my goal in my teenage years. I know I'm being stupid and immature but i want him and I want any guy. I have never kissed a guy in my life and i wanted to kiss someone by my 16th and thats in about a month and 5 days. well i g2g.... cya luv kat