Journal

i cried

i cried again today. tears flooded my face, soaked my shirt, and brought lovely red bloches. my are still burning me. sadly this is not unusual for me, i have cried more in this past year then in any others that i can remember. i don't know what i am doing, i don't know who i can depenend on, i don't even know if i can depend on myself. i am alone, i can't deal with it. what do i do? curl up in a ball and cry until everything fixes itself? do i have the strenght to face it all? i am drowning in everything, should i blame it on these stupid hormones? or my parents? i am getting tired of blaming everything on everyone else. i am tired of haveing to feel bad about anything..........