Journal

metally exausted

Mentally i'm tired. I have had to think and deal with so much this week it is like ughhhhhhhhhh, sometimes i wish i didn't have to see and feel the pain and anger that surrounds me. i feel like when i am listening and being around people i am losing my voice and my identy, right now i just feel weird. does everyone feel like that? i feel alone, and sometimes i find myself mimicing other people in order to fit in or whatever.
all week i have been debateing over religion, goverment, responsibility, loyality, honor, and weither or not the guy my friends and i just passed or talked to is cute. right now my friend darrell is im'ing me, i think he might like me, i keep getting all these weird "someone likes you emails and i think that he is sending them. he's just weird. he's cool, but i would never date him. i feel like he is my brother or something. i don't know i'm probably just being stupid. and what kind of guy sends an email?! guys if you are reading this i'll give you a hint: it is more desireable and mature if you just come out and tell her.

oh michael and brandon tired to get me to tell them how the female brain works. hell no. they are convinced that we should come with a 600 page manual. when i asked them what the fun in that was they said these little games aren't fun. since when? later
mj