Ok so I am addicted... |
My sons mean everything to me. I try to give them everything in life as far as love, security and a feeling that I am always going to be there for them. I have been thinking how lucky my family is as my children have parents that love each other. We show that love to each other and to each of them. As a teacher I see a lot of mixed families. You have a lot of divorces now a days. I truly don't know how a single parent does it. I know it takes a lot. The thing is a child needs your time more than anything. They need that cuddle up time. They need you for homework time or just to read a book. They need you to play a favorite game with them. They need you to be there when they don't feel good and when they do feel good. A lot of parents don't get that with their kids. They have to work longer hours. I know I have a parent that works very late several nights a week. Her son doesn't see much of her. She is a single parent. I can't imagine my children and I being separated like that. Lately I have been feeling guilty because I have been so tiired. Several afternoons and esp. on the weekends, i just nap. I know I deserve it and my kids seem fine with it. But then I think am I giving a signal to them. One of not paying enough attention to them. I mean I am paying attention to them-- but I haven't spent much quality time with them. I know it is just me-- but I want them to grow up thinking--- my mom always had time for me and nothing else was as important. Or will they think- my mom worked alot and she was so tired all the time--- but she loved me. Well maybe I am being a little dramatic. But I feel like that sometimes. MY oldest has asked for us to go to a movie together. I think I will quit putting him off and take him up on it as soon as I can. I just want them to remember me doing a lot of different things with them. I know I treasure that from my own parents. Even today I like to go home and spend some quality time with them. |