My life is about as interesting as the next person's. |
Current Mood: upset Current Music: Centerfold - J. Geils Band Shane told me he was gonna beat his cousin up for calling me ugly. Hey, why bother? It's true! Screw everybody. I'm like really pissed off right now. I am stupid. I am a loser. And I don't really know what Shane thinks of me. I'm getting to that point where I care again. Damnit, that sucks. That means I'm getting attached and I can't let that happen. Maybe I'll just have to avoid him. I'm not going to get hurt by him. Not by another guy. In the last year, two guys I have been deeply in love with have just ripped out my heart and I am not letting that happen again. I refuse to get attached. I'm going to Kentucky Friday and I'm not coming back until Monday. I wonder if he'll miss me? No, why would he? Does he like me still? Am I stupid? Am I ugly? These are questions I have to know answers to. Beause I'm fucking into him too much. I've got to fucking stop. <sigh> I miss Jacob a lot. I wish he'd quit being gay and stupid. I wish he'd be the way he used to be. I was online for 6 1/2 hours downloading music for Kady and he was on the whole time I was and we never talked. He hates me. HE HATES ME! I don't feel like going to school. I gotta get over this. I'm so depressed and upset. He just doesn't understand how much he hurt me. How long, how long Will I slide Separate my side I don't, I don't Believe it's bad Slittin my throat It's all I ever had... -------------------------------------------- but i threw you the obvious, just to see if there's more behind you. eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy but i see, see through it all. see through, see you |