trapped in a soap opera

5 days too late

well, i met the perfect guy--5 days too late. I think ive been talking about hanging out with goob, and riding motorcycles and shit. anyway goob has these twin friends zach and jeremiah. theyre pretty cute, live in a house with a friend of theirs. jeremiah is the more outgoing talkative one, but i always thought zach was the cute one, and thurs night before i left for ft smith we ended up talking till 6 in the morning about anything and everything. at that time he had went on like one date with this girl jacqeline. ive met her. cowgirl, shes like 18, kinda goofy but shes ok. course when i met here she was hanging all over this one guy--but goob says their just friends--like me and perk are maybe. anyway apparently after i went to ft smith they really hooked up and shes been over every night since. oh well thats the story of my life--i finally meet a guy i get along with, thats smart, funny, sweet, responsible, owns a nice vehicle, a motorcycle etc, and he starts dating someone over a weekend im gone. whats fucked up about the whole situation, is that him and jaqueline have nothing in common--he is in no way country. jeremiah smacked him the other day cause he put a cowboy hat on--after just a few years ago he said that jeremiah wasnt allowed to wear it in his house (its jeremiahs from when he was a kid--he just gave it to zach as a joke). besides zach has been giving jeremiah hell about dating 18 yr olds--how old is she??. oh well. im griping about this cause i like him, but i am looking at it objectively (along with everyone else) and none of us can figure out what the hell hes doing with her. its crazy--everyone that hangs out at the house wants me--except for the one i want.

on other notes--had fun in ft smith i guess. didnt get to see everyone i wanted but it was ok. went to perks last night (after i left Z & J's) he made me a CD with a bunch of songs i like on it--shouldve checked them first though cause one of them is messed up--everything by stereofuse. doesnt have spoofs, but dead air where someone tried to take them out i guess. we got it on for the first time in weeks---very nice. oh yeah i did finally get a vibrator in ft smith he he.
well got to get ready for work--laters