trapped in a soap opera

only i can end up in these situations i swear

has it really been that long since i wrote?? Oh well. when i do write i write a lot (the last entry was long till it disappeared). anyway, i had a glimpse of weirdness for a while--there were like 4 guys i had been connected with or almost connected with that were all contemplating breaking up with their girlfriends/wives but that situation has calmed down. Perk is still contemplating it, but i dont knwo what i would do if he was single again.

Ok as far as weird situations, i seem to attract them. I sleep with jeremiah 2 or 3 times a week (including the last 2 nights) but still havent had sex in over a month. weird huh? he still has his girlfriend too. we still dont do anything--its kinda like were an old married couple--i listen to him talk about his day and then we just go to bed. weve gotten closer, like being close to him in bed doesnt bother me at all its really weird. like ill turn over to talk to him and be like 2 inches from his face, but its completely comfortable. I asked him last night why he lets me sleep there--cause i know why i do it. he just said something to the extent of its comfortable to just lay there and talk for a minute then go to sleep. its so weird cause it should be a sexual situation but its not at all. we still dont curl up together to sleep, but ill play with his hair or something. and last night he very quickly kissed my shoulder. it so hard to explain--i dont even know. but he pretty much agreed with what i said last night--ive learned not to try to analyze a good thing. in other words im not trying ot decide if were going to get together or not, but just enjoying what we have--even though no one else understands it. i think if we did get together then it would be one of those things that we just wake up one day and realize that we are together. for now i just think of him as a very close friend. this really is weird isnt it?

went to the health dept yesterday to see about my period problem--they did some tests and stuff and determined that it was indeed a side effect of the birth control. pretty much when i go back in the middle of aug i have the choice to stay on the same one (the longer you are, the less likely you are to have a period at all) or go to a different one (which wont necessarily fix the problem and i forget to take) so i guess ill just stay on this shit. the good news is that ive only spotteed one day out of the last week and a half or so so i am getting a break. im sure id still have the sex problem though. oh well not like im gettin any anyway. well i got to make some calls before it gets too late so i guess i have to go.
laters

oh yeah i forgot--i got my belly button pierced last week...finally. i also bought a new tongue ring that says "fuck off" he he.