Journal

lunch

Today at lunch when my friends and I were just about to leave dee showed up. She had me paged to the office (another one of those things you can do when you're almost 20....) and when I first saw her my stomach dropped but everything turned out ok. I didn't get angry, I smiled and waved. She told me that we needed to talk, so I decided that we should make a trip to walmart (aka memory lane) to buy my brother "the two towers." My friends in a total confusion just went to my house and ate bean burritos. I think that they thought I couldn't stand her, but it is never that simple is it? Dee and I talked and so far, the future looks hopeful. She said that she came because she had been dreaming about me nearly every night for the past couple of days and she knew I was in trouble. It's really freaky, how it has just been the past week that I have been thinking about her... that just shows we are really connected somehow, because for the past 2 years we have always known when something really bad was happening, she didn't call much last year when she was hanging out w/ her bf, only when she knew i needed her bad.
she said something that i had never really thought of. Jesse and Tiffany complicated our friendship. They added another element that we weren't ready for, and while it's not there fault, they tend to snoop and overcomplicate things. so this time it's going to be just us, i'm not going to tell monica and april everything, we just won't get others involoved. i'm kinda nervous, but really hopeful; when you find a
"real/true" friend it is best to hold on to them as long as you can. but is she one? i guess only time will tell