Things I find myself only able to express in words and in this journal - welcome! |
And I stayed up most all night. I bitched to Mandi for a while about stupid stuff with Sarah. About that. Just, everything. That had me feeling better to a degree. To look and think about stuff with us, how she was/is, how I am. Yeah, that made me feel some better. Still was pissed. Mandi had discussions with me about how I felt, tho, she didn't know the whole story. We also talked about her family problems, which, have made her have panic attacks. I was supposed to turn in my Psych workbook today, but, I overslept. So, if I turn it in now, there's a chance I'll get a B in that class. If I take the Comprehensive Test on Friday... then I have to make sure I know EVERYTHING, but, my grade won't be lowered by a complete letter, hopefully. But, I can turn my workbook in then. I woke up in time, luckily, to go take my final in sociology. Yeah, that woulda been REALLY bad. I looked awful, felt bad, but whatever. Like I said, that stuff is the easiest. I came back in... here I am now... I just read what April sent... which... makes a lot of sense and makes me calm down a lot. She threatened me with a tennis racket... haha, that isn't life or death. Unlike a guy with metal claws as fingers... that... could be death. Kim's on. I'm talking to her. She's not... her normal self. Which is fine, I wasn't either, I'm still not completely. However, I think, I'm making her laugh/smile. She's not hard to do that with. But, yeah. I was going to talk to her about everything, and right now, I feel drained. So, in a moment, I'm going to go take a bath. A nice long bath, with some music, and try to forget everything for that time. Good dog, my stomach hurts. "Sometimes I feel buried by a landslide of extremes, Hard-pressed on every side, it seems...But somewhere between all the madness and mundane, there's a glimpse of hope to keep one sane...*sigh to the third power*" - I stole that |