Reconnecting with my DNA, after 20 years

I finally got the nerve to respond

From: "Lisa"
To: Uncle Randy
Subject: It's Lisa
Date: Thu, 19 Feb 2004 00:58:23 -0600

For years now, I have wondered what to say in this letter. Wondered how to catch up, what I might learn and what I might be missing. Somewhere in the
passing of time and the pains of growing, I lost track of how long its taken for me to figure it out. And here I am, about to turn 30.

I remember your face vividly from the World Fair, when I was 7 and we laughed and played and you coaxed me onto rides that we later found would make me green! Now, I have two of my own, even older than I was the last time you saw me.

I am at a loss for what to say and where to start. The only thing I do know,is that I am more like the Rouseys each day and I discover bits and pieces
of me that are unlike anything I could have observed from the family I have known on my mothers side. I have always been so proud of the dimple in my chin and the Chinese like eyes, which I knew came from my Dad. Most of my life I relished in the differences of mine that were so distinctly not Conner like. I have always cherished the fact that he had to be ingrained in my blood, since I had never made the effort to stay close enough to you all to pick up your mannerisms or talents.

I think that as time went on, I felt so badly for not inviting you all into my life that it compounded and became more difficult with each passing holiday or medical question that made me remember the half of me I was missing. I am very sorry to have robbed you of the experience of watching me grow. I have an even bigger amends to make to Eugene. I dont really think
that I even walked through being 5 until 20 years later so I am on a really slow enlightenment plan!

I want more than anything to know who you are, to show you your nieces and nephews that are not so little anymore. I just dont know how to express that I wish this could have happened sooner. I hope we can talk more.

Love, Lisa

P.S.- You saw the pictures, do you think I look like my Dad? I am trying to find some new pictures of my kids, Damian and Kara to send you. They are 13 and 11.




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