My True Soul

Joyful...joyful, really... joyful, lol!

On Friday, my parents ran into the guy who babysat me when I was younger. The guy that I kept remembering things about. I didn't see him, nor did my mom, but my dad told me he had talked to him. When he said that, it just kinda made me feel....creepy in a way. I really didn't let it bother me too much, but it did for aboue 30 minutes I guess. Just wondering what he would have done if I had of been in front of him at the time, wondering if he would have been able to recall that. Afterall, it wasn't like he was just a year or 2 older than me, it was more like 10-12 if not more.

I'm tempted to call Eric so I can go say goodbye to him. But then again, I don't want to because, well...it's alright if I don't. I don't like the conclusion of saying goodbye. I will see him again, I know.

Yummy Strawberry Daiquiri...virgin of course. And there was something else I had to say, some observation, some something or another and now? I can't remember.

Oh, right, lol. Yesterday when Eric and I were talking, I told him it'd been a lil over a month since I've talked to Sarah. He kinda grinned and asked me if I missed her. I don't, not really. He told me he thought it was good I wasn't letting her tear me to pieces like I'd let her do before, I agree.

I refuse to let people rule me like I did her. I refuse to let myself be jerked around like she did. I will do nice things for people I care about because I want to, I will go out of the way for them if I want to. No more of how she did...nope, lol. My friends are all kinda like "damn, you are serious" It's like a taste aversion, you have it happen once and that's all it takes...haha, no not really, had it done several times. I want food now, I'm hungry. I've only been eating once a day, it's been nice in a way.