Angela's Musings

only eight more weeks

I have only eight more weeks of school left and I will have a bachelor's degree. I am still amazed by this whole idea. I have wanted to go to college since I was 12 years old and here I am about to finish. The idea is pretty scary no matter how I think about it. I don't work in a place where my education is being utilized. I worry that I am going to be one of those people who can't find a job in their field once they finish with school. I worry that I won't find a day job either. What am I going to do with my life when I don't have school work to do? Actually that is probably already answered. I am writing a lot now and that hopefully won't change. I want to be able to spend more time with my writing once I am done. What if I have gone to school for the wrong thing? I'm trying to get into a master's program - what if that is for the wrong thing? I've been doing this for so long, I'm afraid I have made the wrong decision.

I took a personality test last spring and the things that my personality was most suited for weren't even on the list. I'm going into a human service field and that wasn't an area where my personality would fit in. Actually writing was one of the bigger areas. That is scary - I've spent six years working on this degree. I really hope this hasn't been a mistake. I can't quit working to write at least not at this time. I can do both right now. My future feels uncertain and I don't like it. I know that there is nothing certain about the future but so many things are up in the air and are riding on my shoulders and I am tired.