Melia's Life

Being 34

Well let me see...What to do today? ..

I am not sure what I am going to do today, my birthday. I know what I want to do but unfortunately it is not the popular decision around my son who thinks we should set off firecrackers and other fireworks. The thing is that I grew up in Southern California from which fireworks have not been legal for many years in the city I grew up in. I also had a mother who hated the darn things and was scared to death of them.

Anyway, all I really want to do is just get through this damn day.

I got a call from my Dad this morning, what joy. I wish I felt like I could tell him how I really feel...I am pissed that he has not cared to meet his two granddaughters from me. He has not seen his grandson since he was like three years old and he is now nine.

My dad was mad that I had not told him that his latest granddaughter was born some two months ago. Well why should I as I know unless we move to a city from which he visits or flies into frequently then we are left alone and left to rot.

I guess that he did find my older half-sister which is good because maybe someday we will be able to talk to each other. I would like to maybe talk to her through email or something.

I am off to try and get nothing done.