Melia's Life

Sometimes I wonder!

There are times like today if I really fit in here, at writing.com. I would do better if I just hid in a corner and simply fell into the ether and did my writing and stayed with that rather than trying to be a damn community member. I realize now why I am scared to even go out of my house.

This is so fucked I know but communities suck the big one. There is nothing I can say or any one person can say to make me believe otherwise.

I have always been an outcast and will always be an outcast and I guess that is just how the hell it is going to be. Heck I always liked nerds, I married a nerd although a very different type of nerd as he liked industrial and grunge music when I met him and now listens to acid jazz but he is a nerd needless to say. He always has his head in a book but wears t-shirts and no pocket protectors.

So if you do not see me for a very long time on scroll or elsewhere know that I am truly okay I just need time to re-find myself and be who I am and feel comfortable being. I have a quiet personal life that is important to me and I know who loves me and those closest to mew mean more than full membership into this community ever has been.

I will thus fade off into the moonlight and drift into my true self. If you want to get to know me better come to my port and take a look at my various writings and come to my blog often.

Trust me as I sign off today saying that I am better of alone in my thoughts. I will be ok I just need a chance to find who I am and thus maybe get something done beyond trying to become someone I already know I am not.

I am a vulgar daughter of a son of a bitch...Think about that for a second and you will understand that I am talking about my Dad being the son of my grandmother the bitch. Goo night all and be careful with this post and please don't take it to mean I am mad at anyone in particular. I am more mad at me trying to fit into a crowd I never want to join in the first place, where I am is fine and dandy with me, thank you.