The Life Of Me.

13th September 2005

Am in a surprisingly okay mood today. Made everyone laugh loads in Psychology, I felt so mint I love making people laugh, just doesn't happen that often. Got me passport photos for my travel pass, so I don't have to be poor ANYMORE. Well...I will be until next Friday when I get paid Need to get my EMA money sorted aswell. Filled out my form though, so it's all good

I miss Martin. Was absolutely dying to see him last night, but Mum said he wouldn't always want to see me, and Alan said time apart is good. But I still felt poopy. Then Martin was all "thought you might have come to meet me" lol...wish I had. Going to see him tonight hopefully. I miss him....

He's started worrying about absolutely everything lately...and at first, I was the one who had to learn to trust in our relationship and take the leap because I was scared. Now that he's worried...sometimes I don't really know how to feel about things...whether I should be worrying and whether I should be leaving myself so open and vulnerable to having my heart broken. I was trying my best not to fall so in love with him straight away, knowing just how badly it would hurt...but he convinced me that with us, the rules had changed. We were special. And if he doesn't think that anymore...makes me all confused. Sometimes I get sick of reassuring him all the time, it never seems to get through. Spose he just needs me at the moment...so I'll be there for him as much as he needs. I need him to be strong for me, and let me know that it's all going to be okay and everything's going to work.

Meep....I'm bored also.