Life as we know it sucks

Nostalgia

Current Mood: pretty ok

Current Music: The Trews - Tired of Waiting

I was missing Shane last week and now I'm missing a whole lot of other people - I miss my daddy terribly right now. After reading Sunny's 3rd diary (it's a book) about her mom dying that's all I've been thinking about.

I miss Christopher. I feel like I'll always be missing something because we never resolved anything. Or we never made up. I guess I didn't expect us to, but the unexpected and impossible things do occur now and again. I just miss his friendship. I miss everything about it. He evolved overnight into my best friend. He really did and I miss him. I just feel like things will never be the same until something between us changes.

I miss Joseph. Sometimes I feel like I have feelings for him stuffed at the back of my heart. I wonder whether I do. We're suppoed to hang out today. I miss his company and his sarcasm. He was a good friend to me once Christopher showed me he wasn't.

And you know, sometimes I miss Ashton. Yes, even the bitchiest of bitches is hard to forget. We were such good friends - or so I thought. Everything fell apart last year. My relationship with Shane almost did. My relationship with Christopher fell apart, but they (Ashton and he) united in my misery. And I think that's what I hate her most for. Leaving me for some guy that I had hurt, but who had equally hurt me back. Friends choose friends where it counts and that, my dear ex-friend, counted.

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