I knew this would happen...

he is weak

The years that have passed and the pain I have been through. Although reading back makes me cry, I have to wonder how I let it get from that to actual physical abuse, and now...
Well, now he is in anger management. Now I have met his parents and his family "oh what a pretty girl..." I am. Looks don't mean anything, doesn't anyone understand that? When people say it depends on how you feel inside, they are so right.
I feel as though I have a grip again, a bit of a grip, although I am so full of anger and resentment after all we have been through. At least he seems to understand that, but I cannot promise that I will ever really get over it. Especially when I read back over past entries and remember again all the pain I let him cause me.
But we are all working through this, and maybe this is the last relationship I will work on in my life.
I just pray I don't end up bruised by him again
It's embarassing