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Exposure

I'm never sure what I actually want to achieve when I send out demos. I kind assume something will happen - but it is invariably something I have no idea how to deal with. I sent some music to a record label in London (very close to where I work in fact) and the amusing reply was that they loved it, thought it was some of the best stuff they'd heard......but did not want to work with me. I'm sure many writers and would-be's have had similar responses. The intriguing thing is that you can't tell if they are just being polite or simply acting strangely. Either way you can't act on it - it's a positive rejection that leaves you no wiser. Or any nearer to your goal.
Same with looking for venues to play at - similar to finding places to send stories for publication....why should they pick me? Even if my "product" is great? When I write, the result in usually some bizarre hybrid of horror and surreal sci-fi, often with a musical theme (such as the protagonist being a musician or composer etc) and I look at and think "Where the hell could I send that?"
Hmmm, why's and where's. No answers...It all seems a bit down and lost today doesn't it? Funny, because I'm actually in a fine mood! Setting my thoughts on paper always makes me sound depressive! I'm really an optimist.
I think it's because I ask myself a lot of questions - maybe it's time I stopped asking myself and just put my work out there and let others decide! Time to let my editing voice go and allow my real voice some exposure!