Crazy Days

life

Do you ever wake up and say to yourself "Is this really my life"? Not that it's bad, but just that as you grow up this isn't where you thought you be. I know I am only 21 but at the same time I am already 21. Life goes by so quickly that you just don't even know where the years have gone. Over all everything in my life is going really well. Im beyond broke but thats normal. I think the big thing right now is that my heart is hurting. I met a boy three months ago and we had an instant connection. We all know I don't have the best track record with guys, but this one was different than I had ever met before. Needless to say we really got to know each other and feelings took off. Now we aren't really talking and it breaks my heart. It's not because we got in a fight or feelings are different. If anything feelings are stronger. He is scared and now I am scared and we can't just be friends but we can't be together. Confused? Join the club. I honestly feel like he could be my soul mate, we just met at a really bad time. I don't want to lose him because I really care about him....but timing is just bad for both of us. I keep hoping that if it is meant to be we will eventually be together....but who knows where are life could take us. This sucks. I am at a lose for words......
Manda