Looking Around

What to say- or not.

I have, once again, let this thing lapse for a long time. Part of it is that I don't really share my journaling all that much. Ok, I have not shared anything much, except what drivel I have managed to spill out on this site. I have a couple of other journals I keep more privately. Then I sit here and wonder about what to put up here. The "fear" is that someone will read it and take things out of balance- and that I might reveal more that I want to about myself... oh horrors, especially for more normal writers. But, I am not so normal, I think.

I don't especially care if I am published or not- ok, it would be fun. I don't have an overwhelming urge to send of piece after piece to editors or publishers. I just can't not write something down every day. It doesn't have to be earthshattering (and it often isn't). I will sit down and jot some rambling thing or another in my computer, mostly kicking ideas around or marking some event in my life when a thought occurs to me. At some point, in a conversation, this little idea, usually, pops out and conversation stops. Someone will turn to me and say something like- "I never thought of that before" or they will burst out laughing because some improbable connection just got made in their head between reality and mental framework. It isn't much, but it is gratifying to see someone have an "Aha" moment.

What I really need to start doing is not editing so much about what I share- I could make this a log of entrys of my moments of connection, instead of keeping them so buried...and realize that no one really reads boring blogs (so I am safe). And, now, I have run out of time and so hopefully will try this again sometime before two or three weeks...