Breathing Room

Pretty Pathetic

I can't wait to get to work on Wednesday. Well sort of. I've been so LAZY! its absolutely ridiculous. I only exercised like twice last week and I feel out of shape. I'm going to the gym in about 30 minutes. I need to, plus it will boost my energy.

I feel as if I have no friends. A couple of Dave's friends from college came up this weekend and stayed with us and they all hung out this weekend -but me I just sat at home reading books (Normal Girl by Molly Fast-Jong is absolutely terrible and Truth and Consequences by Alsion Lurie was o.k.) and watching television. I didn't even talk to anyone on the phone. Its not like I don't have friends (at least in theory) because I do. I have friends back home in Cali and a few here in Philly but the thing is I don't really have a good grilfriend who I can call and talk to about anything and nothing and hang out with like I did in college. That friend and I called it quits for reasons I still don't know.

I don't really feel depressed about it and I'm not desperate for friends but I feel like something is missing in my life and that might be it. I mean Dave and I are so close and he's obviously my bestfriend because I tell him everything but its not the same and plus I need another outlet other than Dave.

I tried with Dave's sisters and it was just pointless. Although one is older than me she is seriously not at all mature (though she has a six year old son she treats like an adult) and having a conversation with her is like being in highschool. Its ridiculous.

I've lots of "associates" but there's nothing like a friend who you are totally comfortable with. This entry seems pretty pathetic. Gawd!

Well whatever. I'm not pathetic but maybe the situation is a little bit. My situation is impossible.