Carpe Diem

throwing myself off a cliff

Ok
I am at work right now because when things get slow around here there is nothing better to do then to get into trouble.
I am in the midst of seeing if this enormous crush I have on someone will go anywhere. I feel like I am in highschool again.
I am one of the most pickiest people when it comes to dating. I think that right now I have about four other people who would date me. I got asked out by someone tonight and I said NO. Actually that guy asked me twice.
Anyway... There is this one guy that I actually DO like and there was all this conspiracy going through the office tonight to get him and I into more contact with each other.
Yai! It seemed to work. I am getting a ride home with him tonight... and other circumstances suggest that he likes me too.
Yesterday he told the woman that drives me home that he would be more than happy to drive me cause he lives a lot closer to me than she does. When my ride asked him if he could drive me tonight he apparently had a huge grin.
Doesn't this sound like highschool? And I am feeling really fucking nervous.
This is the first serious crush that I have had in a long while. After jackass stupid boy I wasn't really looking to hook up. I always figured I would if I found someone that I liked and well I guess I did now.
I feel like there is this huge ass cliff there ahead of me that I either have to climb or jump off. I think jumping off would be the most accurate.
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