Break the Cycle

Factor: Mood swings

You are classic. Though at times you can be predictable, it doesn't take a whole lot to please you. You are generally pretty happy and easy to get along with.

I don't know. My mood swings can hit me like a rock if I'm not careful. Thing is, whenever my mood swings, I can become angry. Why's that? Well, with mood swings, I tend to lose some self control. Notice the word some. Lately, even though I've been a grouch, I have been able to confine my bitching to my journal(s) and a few close friends. Otherwise, I've tried to be fair to everyone involved, no matter how much he/she makes me want to cap his/her ass. So, is this progress? Perhaps, but I ought to consider what happens when my mood does swing.

Looking at how my mood swings work is far from easy, mostly because, as I said before, they blindside me. Thus, it's kind of difficult to really pinpoint what happens. What I have noticed is I tire more easily, I'm more easily annoyed (which I'm starting to think might be psychosomatic) and after a certain point, I turn retreatist. Now I did say in a previous entry that isolation is not good for me. However, if you notice I'm becoming angry by being around people, it's probably a good idea to back off and let me retreat to some sort of seclusion. This seclusion was very common in high school, espcially in the later years, as social situations (most notably band) annoyed and angered me. Do I need seclusion so much? Well, yes and no. Offline, since I have my own place, that's seclusion in itself. Online, though, since I'm constantly being pestered, hounded and questioned, I sometimes need downtime. Lately, this has resulted in me taking a few days off from the site. Of course, that's when something significant happen. Now when I take these breaks, it's not like I lock up my computer. I'll still hop on to check e-mail (and maybe journal), but that's all I do. I don't look at scroll. I don't post in forums. I don't change ratings (which I do a lot). I go on severe site redux, and it tends to help. I'm actually considering doing that next week, but we'll see. My moods are not always easy to handle, especially the physical tiring. I think if I can manage that, I can get past the annoyance that so often leads to anger(such as...now).