A little something about nothing

Feeling Sorry for Myself

Last night I got a bit depressed, which has led into this morning. I know it will soon pass, but while it is here I must say it really sucks!

I'm not sure if I wrote about this or not, but earlier this week was going really good with my potential boy toy. I sent him a text message on Monday, which we went back and forth a few times; however, that got him to send me a text message on Tuesday. We went back and forth for 1/2 an hour and then he called me. We only chatted for 10 or 15 minutes, but it was a start. Not to mention it made my night!

We didn't communicate on Wednesday, which I didn't expect to anyway and then last night we worked together. Although last night was weird. He smiled and made flirty faces at me and we talked a bit, but it was more of a distant type talk. Then he was talking about an ex-girlfriend. This girl paid for him to go to Europe with her for 3 weeks. He got back and said how annoying she is, but he felt rude to just stop talking to her. Each night he works she brings him up dinner. Now she is taking him to a UofM game next week because he couldn't afford the tickets himself. I told him he was using her, but he denied it and turned it into a joke. I honestly don't think anything that comes from his mouth is truthful. If it is he turns it into a joke for fear of what someone might think or say. Either way, it made me realize all this flirty talk we've had was just that...talk.

I know deep down it is for the best. I mean c'mon, I am nearly double his age...not quite, but still!! I guess it just felt good thinking that someone so stinkin' cute with a body to die for may have had an interest in me. So when the reality sunk in it made me depressed that I am alone and have no potentials in view.

Like I said, I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself and I'll be over it soon enough, but for now I am just stickin' out my bottom lip and pouting a bit.