Dis 'n Dat

I've been better

I've been looking at some of my recent blogs and they are filled with so much ugliness and rant that I feel embarrassed. But even more unfortunate is I think I know now why my heart has been so heavy.

Hubby and I are having some problems. I didn't think our situation was so bad, but the last couple of nights have been filled with serious talks and many tears on my part. I'm not writing this in hopes of sympathy or anything like that so please don't feel badly. I'm sure everything will work out fine. I've been praying and praying about it. I've talked to my mom and that always helps me. I love that I have such an open and honest relationship with Mom. It's truly a blessing.

I won't go into details because...well...because I just won't. Marriage problems are so painful and my nerves are so raw right now. Just when I think I'm dried up from crying I can feel the tears stinging again and it's hard to fight them back. Love is such an awesome and powerful thing. It's so crazy that it can give you the highest high or the lowest low.

And I don't want Chewie Kittie to worry. We're just in a rough patch right now. Everyone has them and I know that we will overcome this one. I just hate not knowing when. As Tom Petty would say--The waiting is the hardest part. Or Carly Simon--Anticipation. It's making me crazy.

Okay, so I tried to end this entry on an up note. That's how I deal with pain. I try and make light of it. Laughing helps get me through. So, partyof5dj if you wouldn't mind cranking out another chapter to your serious literay romance type thingy I would be extremely grateful.

Much y'all.