Shadow Puppet Storyteller

In multiple knots

         A day off from work is not supposed to feel like this, I think. And despite the fact that the day-off was taken to accommodate several (routine) doctors appointments, my insides feeling tied up in knots really had nothing to do with any physical poking and prodding. Instead it is from the discomfort I feel in facing my own beliefs about finances.

         Today, I have been edgy, juggling my funds from one account to another. That's a usual occurance, a habit I'm trying to normalize and automate. Really, just a good surplus of funds would eliminate my insanity. My focus of self-discovery is on the idea of abundance this week, so all kinds of things are bubbling up. Being supplied by God and having a fulfilled serene state from such is the main goal. It starts in belief. The question I keep coming up against is why my belief is limited in this area.

         I'm really too distracted to expand further on this right now. Earlier I was trying to find ways to think this all through rather than cry. Just for fun, I think I will try to let my rage over limitation out in something written. I guess I'm feeling too shy to cut loose in my blog, however.