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Addictions

There is a wonderfully disturbing show on A&E called Intervention. I stumbled across it one night and was instantly hooked. It's filmed like a documentary and the participants go about their daily lives talking about their addiction. What they don't know is that their family and/or friends are setting them up for an intervention.

They have shown all kinds of addictions/diseases. Alcoholism, illegal and prescription drugs, anorexia, bulimia, and even cutting. For those of you who don't know, cutting is just what it sounds like. The person cuts themselves. I've only seen one episode with this particular addiction and it freaked me out. Why? I guess because the girl and I had something in common and our common ground is what made her a cutter. Why wasn't I like that?? Or more importantly, why wasn't she like me?? I don't know if I could ever commit some self-mutilation. But that's what makes this show so amazing. What makes someone an addict.

They always give the background on the addict, and it always starts in a such a positive light. They were an honor student. A gifted athlete. A doctor with a promising practice. And then a major tragedy strikes in their lives. Death, divorce, moletstation...you name it. Then before you know it they are on some downward spiral of destruction, thus the intervention. More often than not, they accept the treatment program. Sometimes treatment works, and sometimes they relapse. It's crazy how it all works.

I guess that's why I watch the show. Will these people get their lives back on track? That gives me hope. Because if they can beat substance abuse surely I can kick my additction.

Yes, I'm an addict. Food is my drug of choice but since it is a legal substance society doesn't recognize it as a serious problem. I love and hate food. It gives me comfort and also makes me feel wretched. Sometimes it brings me joy and sometimes I cry as I take a bite. I would classify myself as having an eating disorder because I don't think I have a healthy relationship with food. But since I'm on the other end of the spectrum what would I be classified as from a professional point of view? Serious problem or seriously pudgy??

I wish someone would have an intervention with me and send me off to some treatment facility (paid for) so I could come to grips with my issues.