Just shut up and Listen

COSTLY MY DEBT

I'M LOOSING MY SENSES WITH THESE EEELINGS TJ-IATIEEEL
I WANT TO COME HOME TO WHAT I PERCIEVE TO BE AND HEAL
ALL THE DESCEPANCIES AND TO YOU MY THOUGHTS
ALL THE CASUALTIES AND TO YOU MY HEART.
I SEE IT PUMPING, AND ALL THE BLOOD ON THE FLOOR.
A SIMPLE PLEASURE IT WAS AND THEN I EEEL IT NO MORE.
OH WHAT A MESS I MADE NOT WITH MY DEATH BUT WITH MY LIFE,
I GUESS THATS THE REASON I FOUND IT SO EASY FOR ME TO DIE.
I REALLY NEVER HAD ANY ACCOMPLISHMENTS.
HOW THEN COULD I HAVE DONE ANY OF THIS?
I TRY TO REMEMBER BUT MY THOUGHTS ARE TOO WEAK.
DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER MY SOUL PLEASE KEEP
MY HEART HAS NO LIFE WITHOUT BEATING. A FINAL CONQUEST.
THIS A FINALITY OF SORTS WHAT MORE WOULD ANOTHER SUSPECT?
MY EYES ARE WICKED, I DON'T BELIEVE, IN WHAT I DO SEE.
THE BLUDGENING OE MY BODY AS IT LAYS STILL AND BEFORE ME.
WITHOUT WANTING BLAME INDEED AND IN REMORSEFUL SHAME.
I CAN GO ON I KNOW I HAVE NO REIGN
ON THIS EARTH NO MORE PAIN
MY LOVE IN DEPT, TOO COSTLY TO BE KEPT.
MY SCREAMS ARE SILENCED BY A THIN VEIL
SO UNFAIR NO ONE CAN HEAR MY FEELINGS I REVEAL