The Foxhole

Today I am....

Still overwhelmed by the generosity I received here from the kind anonymous soul who upgraded my account. It was very sweet, and very much appreciated!! thank you whomever you are!
I am still having trouble with not smoking. 4 weeks tomorrow, I thought it would get easier, but it just doesn't.
sigh.
Sometimes, I think to myself, "self..(teehee)..maybe you should just smoke. You have no patience now, and everyone would be happier." then I realize, I don't have pms, so they don't have to deal with that every month, so big deal if I'm bitchy now. I am earning the right to be bitchy! Then I in my newfound wishy-washiness think that no one deserves to have to deal with some bitchy ass person. BLAH!!!