The Foxhole

Today I am...

Blah. Yesterday was my birthday, so today, probably due to a sugar crash, I am melancholy. I feel a little lost lately. As if I have left a part of me somewhere and can't remember where I set it down.
I have been trying too hard to play nice I think, and have would up making it that i ahve to be selfish in order to survive. I have wants, needs, and expectations. which I overloooked for a long time. Now I want it all, and so I have almost split apart, hence the left behind feeling I guess. One side wants to just play nice, so everyone will leave me alone. The other wants to stand up and demand proper treatment.