On My Happy Cloud

Happy Heart

I've been here at Ryan's mostly all day. He's at his mom's working on her lawn mower and I have been here by myself for a while. I was laying on the couch and started to think..."Hmm, I feel at home."

I don't know if I've expressed it before but he is wanting me to move in here in July, when my lease is up. He already knows I'm still (extremely) apprehensive about it and that I still can make the choice to resign my lease for another year. But we have talked about it. I'm sure that it will turn out that I will indeed move in. Just scared because of what happened last time. I think last time I moved in with him because I was still living with mom and dad and I desperately wanted to get out of there plus I was at his house most of the time anyway.

Up until today I have been uneasy about it. He tells me often that I might as well face, I'm stuck with him because he's not going anywhere. Hee hee.

But I started to think, maybe I am finally letting my guard down, maybe I am really starting to 100% trust him now. I have to admit, it's a good feeling. This time if we move in it won't be because I feel like I have to I will simply feel like it's just the next step.

Anyway, I got paid 50 bucks for the dog sitting bit last weekend and Ryan and I were going to combine our money together for a massage but he forgot to schedule an appoitment so he bought some parts for his bus and I bought the perfume I have been wanting to buy for 3 years...Clinique's Happy Heart. Actually, they had a free gift with purchases over 30 some dollars and I really wanted that so I thought now would be a good time to finally buy that perfume.

Yeah, I know I can live without it. It's not anything I really need and that 50 bucks could have gone somewhere else that might be needed but I threw all of that aside for once (or twice, perhaps) and broke down and bought it. I ended up getting a gift set with a small bottle of the perfume, the lotion and a double ended lip gloss and roll on perfume which all came in a cute canvas make up bag.

I have to tell you, I love this perfume! What's really great is Ryan loves it too. He is really sensitive to scents and a lot of the perfume I like he doesn't and it gives him a headache. Glad he likes this stuff cause I'm gonna wear it ALL THE TIME!! YAY!

So I have to go back to work tomorrow and I so don't want to. I'm not looking forward to this week at all. I think I need a vacation or something. Ah, well.

Much love and happiness folks,

Elaine Bradley