Down the Rabbit Hole

Low

Most days I operate under stress. Most days, I can find some relief in a mid-afternoon coffee or a good song streaming through my Napster. Some days however, the pressure of the work coupled with the day to day elements of normal life combine in a way that makes my eyes ache. Twice today I've dropped my head onto my desk and taken my constantly ringing desk phone off the hook, a guesture that is an irresponsible as it is uncharacteristic. There is a list a mile long of things going wrong today. Several very complicated deals are falling apart and despite my struggling to keep them together, they are disintegrating and leaving a wake of trouble behind them. There is talk of layoffs again for the first time since September 11th and while my main responsibility isn't HR, I'm being called in to consult on some disheartening employee concerns as well. To top everything thing off, the recently reappeared sun and warm air has disappeared and the skies have turned gloomy again and it seems I can not pull myself out of the ditch I've landed in with my boyfriend. I don't ask for help, but I feel as if I need exactly that on several fronts at once.