The Snowflake Chronicles

Not Acting Like Myself Lately

14 Jamal 164 B.E. – Friday, May 11, 2007

I haven’t been acting like myself lately. Whom, one might ask, am I acting like? I don’t know, but I don’t like her very much.

Normally I’m a fighter, I don’t give up easily. I’m stubborn, verging on bull headed. True I do obsess over things (most people refer to this as worry, but I take it beyond those limits sometimes) and I’m a procrastinator, but when I do start a project I don’t give up, even when the going gets rocky going up hill. However, lately I want to raise a white flag. I’ve found myself second guessing my decisions. I’ve found myself looking for excuses not to continue. And I don’t like where this blog entry is going, so I’m going to change the subject in mid entry.

They say confession is good for the soul, but a person confesses directly to God and not another human being. Besides, become way too negative lately. In fact I’ve become so negative that I’m beginning to bore myself. To much negativity is boring and depressing. Moreover, if I’m not careful, this entry is going to become boring and depressing.

I don’t mind boring or depressing in small doses, but taken together over a long period of time they are poisonous.

I really should be changing the cat litter, at least the two in the house. When I went after Mom’s meds this evening, I found out Walgreens sells cat litter. This was good, because I needed cat litter and had intended to get it today. I got four containers, so I could change all the litter pans. I didn’t have to make an extra trip and stop at another store.

This entry seems to be going nowhere fast, which is probably a lot better than going nowhere slowly.