What a wonderful world!

Picking up the broken pieces

Well, I really think I'm a good for nothing. But I also think it will be wise not to moan and groan all the time. I'm still starving, haven't seen my books in ages... still think I wanna die very soon. Have got 5 exams coming up, don't know how I'm gonna study. I haven't seen my accounting and others for a long time now. I know I'll never achieve good grades...cause my exams were not as good as expected.

My nephew's stuck like glue with me today. Why am I sad? Why am I weeping? Why am I not playing with him? Questions, questions...well I think that's natural for a three year old.

Even my Mom's telling me to practice more music. My instrument has turned into a spider-abode. I can't even sit with the instrument.

Glad I could help a bit though. My nephew finally had his lunch after three days. Wonder why he's so attracted to me? He'll never eat without me around. He's even reluctant to play if I don't play with him.

I've always learned to try to live within my constraints, and be happy with what I have. But if I don't have anything, what's there to be happy about?

Zarin's got her own bedroom, Audity can travel all by herself, Audity also paints in such a way that her pictures just come alive on paper. Sania's got an attractive personality and appearance, Zeeshan's got his personal shop where he helps his dad, Sania, Naveed, Rubaiya... they can EARN their own pocket money by teaching. I'm not allowed to do any job yet..WHY? ONLY BECAUSE OF THIS STUPID FOOT!

Well, perhaps the only thing I can do now is draw in my computer. Mom's always telling me to be happy with what I have. I can't even send my writings to newspapers to be published. Can't even sing properly yet, despite learning music since when I was a 5 year old kid.

Maybe a wingless bird should not think of flying too high. I don't wanna reach the sky either.I don't wanna fly high. I just wanna be a star. A unique, shining star.

When I was in high school, I never wrote my name on my exercise books. I covered my books with the photographed side of wall calenders. Most of my friends prefered to cover with the white side of calender, or brown paper.

That's how, my nameless books could be identified by my techers and friends. That's a very unique style of covering, they used to tell me.

What joke is Allah playing on me anyway? I'm just making new sigs. Haven't sold that much though. There are many other talented artists here like Kiya, Antibarbie, blackwillow, twinkledee, highwind....who will be willing to buy my sigs? I haven't won any contests recently, still have another idea cooking up for Kiya's contest. Well, just another piece of trash may dribble out of my pen, still, I like to write.

I've uploaded three new sigs in my shop today. Don't know if I'll be able to sell them or not. But just to make me happy, here's the link again:

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HB's Signature Collection  (E) This is just a place for my graphical works. Pick up your choice. #1186072 by Humming Bird

I got this as a gift from a friend long ago. I love it.

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