Aria in Elysium

My hands are shaking....

I have a confession to make--

I'm a condradiction....

I love changes...I love changing my life.

But I'm scared of change.....I mean, God...even to call a new dentists, or a new place to ask for information, I get scared...I don't know why. The unknown scares me, and scares me so badly, that its almost embarassing. I get through it though. I mean, I STILL do what I have to do...I just suck it up and do it, even if I'm close to passing out while doing it. Like in school? Yea...scary...but I got through it.

MIght be something mental...might be I'm just crazy or a wimp. I don't know....but hey, I've never let it stop me before. I try and do things that scare me...so that I can get over it. And its working...slowly, but working.

Also, I don't like being in public out much. I mean, I still do it.But I am super paranoid...honestly...I try not to meet anybody's eyes, and just stare straight ahead cause...other people...freak me out...Its always been that way. A fear of strangers...