On My Happy Cloud

Floating Out Everywhere.

I've had a cold for a week. Up late coughing and hacking and choking on excess amounts of flem. I've had a stiff neck for two days and it hurts really bad. My dog won't eat his dog food and acts like he is starving. I don't know what to do for him. I got a flat tire yesterday and I have to find time today to go and have it fixed. On top of that, I have a funeral to go to tomorrow and visitation today.

Of course, that's the worst part. I'm insanely irritable. I'm lashing out at everything. I don't know what my grieving process is. I feel like I'm just floating around and I know at this wake I am going to be stupid and annoying and loud and obnoxious because that's how I deal with such situations.

All I keep thinking is I want to stop and sit for a day, maybe more, and just be quiet. I don't want anyone to look at me or talk to me or anything.

I'm having a hard week. This really sucks and I am so stressed out.

I miss my papaw. I really, really do.

Much love,

Elaine Bradley