We didn't plan for this to happen

The Eye Clinic

October 16, 2007

The eye doc experience was a nightmare. We had to go to an ophthalmologist clinic that is on the fourth floor of Children’s Mercy Hospital. The waiting room was so crowded that patients were waiting out in the hall.

Since the very beginning of our hospital experience, the docs and nurses have warned us not to bring Cadence into a crowded place, because she could get sick. They were emphatic on this point, so much so that I am brainwashed and completely paranoid. So I’m wondering why they sent us to this clinic, where there are literally dozens of people around, most of them children. We were specifically warned to keep Cadence away from other kids.

So the whole time I’m sitting in there terrified that someone is going to give her a bug, and everyone wants to touch her. The mother bear came out in me, I wanted to say, “Get the fuck away from my child!” but instead I was polite and simply said I would prefer it if no one touched her. People seemed miffed at this, but I don’t care. If they were in my place they would react in the same way.

Cadence’s eyes are the same. They haven’t gotten better or worse. The doc seems to think that the ROP will correct itself, and I’m hoping that is true. I can’t stand the thought of my poor child going through surgery. She's been through enough already.