Expressions and Impressions

So Much Has Happened in Just 9 months

So much has happened. I hardly know where to begin. So this will probably be a work in progress for a long time. But then again, writing it all down might just be what I need to do for myself. Call it therapy. I just wish that I had taken the time to get everything down as it was happening.

In my last installment I told how Carp was in the hospital. He was put into Rehab by the Judge. He stayed there for about 2 weeks. Because he didn't have the money to pay once he had gone through detox he was sent home.

Through out the time that he was going through treatment I dealt with a lot of emotions. The first day I actually started to make plans of leaving him. I was going to let him have the trailer, pack up all of my and Jacob's stuff and just go. I don't know where but I was going. I told his family and friends that I was going to leave him. Other then his best friend calling drunk to ask who was going to pay Carp's, nobody said anything. In the end I decided to stay. I had always told him that I would be there for him if he decided to try to quit drinking. I went to a family counseling session, and a meeting with his counselor before I decided to stay. I took a journal and wrote to him my feelings and expectations. I read this at the meeting and left it with him when I left.

Kim