The Real and Ideal

I'm back again

So there's this one quote I jacked from the poetry newsletter.

"Of all the words of tongue and pen, the saddest are 'It might have been.'" by John Greenleaf Whittier.

This is the quote that prompts me to do dangerous things. Or should I say, things that I normally wouldn't do. Because who wants to look back and wonder what could have happened? Not me. It's that whole risk thing. And I also agree with this quote. Because looking back at games and such, there are a lot of things that "might have been." Like, remember that time I missed the net during that one goal game? Oh right. That makes me sad, too.

"Fear is pain arising from the anticipation of evil." -Aristotle

My friend wrote this one in her journal I was reading. I am just a quote jacker lately, I guess. Anyway, it's kind of confusing thinking that fear is actually pain. That's like saying excitement is happiness or toast is donuts or something. I mean, we have different names for emotions because they are actually different. But then again, fear is just a type of pain. I can understand how fear would be painful. Like nerves are painful. Like, I'd be more comforable right now if I wasn't worrying like crazy or stressed out or who knows what. But aniticipation of evil? So like, the word anticipation means that it's not necessarily evil...right? Like, I'm bracing myself for evil, even though it's actually spiders, or heights, or public speaking, etc.

Yeah, I like it. It sounds really cool. And then it's like, speaking in front of large crowds isn't evil, so why should I fear it. Well, maybe it could be. I dunno, I'm just speculating here.

Conflicting thoughts and
fist-fighting views.
It's a messed up choice
But it's up to me to choose.

Heh there's a hockey game tonight and we're hanging out after. It's my mom's birthday today, so I believe there will be food and dessert involved. Mmm. I just really want to have fun tonight, and chase them around without fear (hm) of running into the boards again. My mind has no say in that matter, my body just automatically slows down. I just have to recognize it so that I don't do it, eh? 8>) It will be great.

I felt so brave after Tuesday's game. We totally beat one of the top teams in the conference. It was amazing, and I hope I remember that feeling tonight and all the other nights. Invincible, that's what it feels like. The best cannot defeat us 8>)

Tonight I want to smile like I did on that night. Mmmm hmm. My friend plays on the other team, though, so I hope she has a good time too. And I mean that in the best possible way 8>)

I have to go clean a bit now. And brush my teeth. So I guess I'll talk more later, then. Bye~!