Cabin Fever

1 and 1A

12/8/02

By forcing myself, would you want me?
If I can't have you by grabbing,
I can tell it's not worth it.
But I can't tell myself.

I've lead all the inquiries.
I did all I could.
There're no excuses no.
You can't say you didn't know
when you know you didn't know a thing.

Is she the antidote?
Does she hold the answers?
You left me with the Cliff's Notes
and I still haven't learned a thing
other than she's not the one for you
and that she's doing you no good
but you won't answer
because you don't have a good answer.

She manipulates you like you do not see.
She runs your head in ways
you could not conceive.
She puzzles you. She dictates you.
And you know
that that's never who you ever were
with her.
To me.
With me.
So why do you let her
hold all of your answers?

I NEVER ASKED TO BE NUMBER ONE.
IT JUST ALWAYS FELT THAT WAY.
When I never met her,
you just fulfilled her that way.
Don't be afraid to love her,
but watch your heart first this time.
You don't want to love her,
but it's your opinion, not mine.
I NEVER ASKED TO BE NUMBER ONE
but you need to decide...
need to grow up and decide
what's best for you
and stop breaking hearts along the way.
Stop breaking all the hearts you fall in love with
and find yourself
a better way
         OF LIFE.