Snow Melt

I need to let go

Fidál (Grace), 1 Rahmat (Mercy), 165 BE – Tuesday, June 24, 2008 about 3:07 PM PDT

I need to let go; I need to relax; I need to take a deep breath and keep plugging away. Instead of trying to control everything, which I can't do. OK, I'm admitting it; I'm admitting to a thousand or so readers that I'm a bit of a control freak, which seems odd to me. I can't think of one time in my life that I've been in control of anything for very long. As soon as I think I'm in control I either get constipated or have the runs.

Maybe I need a vacation or just to get away by myself and relax. Actually what I would like is for some of my siblings to come and take Mom to the Zoo or the Mall for a day, while I stayed home and cleaned house or worked online or just sit on my enclosed patio with a glass of ice tea in one hand and a book in the other. I think it would be good for both Mom and myself, if she spent the day with either my brother or my sister. I know there isn't much hope of this happening.

I called my brother (the one living in Las Vegas) the other day and asked if he and his wife could take Mom for a day. I'm not sure, but I think the answer was no. It sounded like an I'll check my date book and get back to you answer. I'll ask again, I'm going to keep asking until I get a decisive no. I'm tired of getting the run around. I get enough exercise in futility without getting the run around.

Maybe I'm being too negative. I do have a tendency to look on the dark side. I see roadblocks as roadblocks not stepping-stones. So maybe I am being too negative. I just need a little relief. I guess I'll take Mom to one of the senior centers for a few hours and let her flirt with all the old men there. As long as she doesn't bring one home I have no problem with her having a man friend; preferably a younger one who can drive her around.