Snow Melt

Silly conversation

My response to the Leading Journal entry by Jenn for September 13, 2008

A "Invalid Entry"  is usually what I end up having with siblings, my mother, my friends, ex-lovers and myself. Normally, I don't talk aloud or whisper to myself, my conversation is usually completely in my head. I don't have many conversations with myself anymore. I get much too negative when I have a discussion with myself.

Instead of talking to myself, I address Baha'u'llah in my mental conversations. This prevents the conversation getting overly negative. It also helps me focus on finding a solution to the problem I'm facing at the moment. I decided long ago that life is too short to have negative conversations with anyone, especially myself.

My sister and I, aren't on good enough terms to have silly conversations about anything. We do talk occasionally, but only when it has to do with Mom. When Mom was in the hospital last year, my sister said she wished we were closer. There was a time when I wished my sister and I were closer, but not anymore.

I'm closer to my brothers and their wives, then I am to my sister. I don't thank any of us have had a conversation about shaving legs. I never did shave my legs, all though I did shave my arm pits at one time. I gave that up when I realized what type of men I'm attracted to. I have to face the fact that they didn't care one way or another, whether I shaved any part of my body. The males I'm attracted to want only one thing and nothing else matters to them.

As for what part of my body looks like an animal's body part. I've never actually considered that before. All though, at 61 and gravity taking its toll, I think my breast are beginning to resemble a cow's utter. In fact, I'm considering writing a parity to the song "Does your ears hang low", but instead of ears use breast or boobs.

Do your boobs hang low,
Can you swing them too and fro,
Can you throw them over your shoulder
Like a contential soldier,
Do your boobs hang low?