On My Happy Cloud

Will I?

Will I ever figure out what it is that's calling me? I feel it all the time, all around me. It never quits.

Will I ever finish this damn novel? It's what I'm supposed to do.

Will I ever stop needing help. I could go on forever.

I am not the one for you. I'm not the one you've been looking for. I'm just myself. I don't need anyone. I don't need anything. I need meditation. I need to stop using sleeping pills for rest.

Thoughts invade my head at everytime of the day. At work, at home, at sleep.

I'm a wasted body for a life. I should have been something else. Sometimes I try to hard. Sometimes I don't try at all.

It's easy to cry when you're me.

Elaine Bradley