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Volunteer me?

In response to entry "Realization spiritual or not"  in the blog of Walkinbird 3 Jan 1892 :

I volunteered time and money once. I did not keep track. One friend wanted me to. Another explained why I'd refuse. For me at that time keeping track = work and I didn't need more work. In the end, I did what I did for as long as I could and wanted to. I no longer do as I no longer live there and no longer know whether I am needed as they don't keep in touch. Guess we've all moved on; but I haven't changed much. In the future I'll volunteer to do what I can but keeping track will probably not be a part of the contract.

Don't volunteer me, my time, my money.

Ask ... maybe. Make a need known and ask me to help in any way that I can? Possibly. My friends thought I was generous once-upon-a-time.

But, I just never had the money or talent or energy to fulfill other people's expectations.

And I'm stubborn and ornery. I always need to be me.

Time is precious and I'm easily depressed and overwhelmed. There are things I won't do.

For instance, there is only one person I'd accept a drink from. Period. I don't drink and no one can make me.

Or like attend my cousin's daughter's wedding because it triggered personal traumas. I sent a check instead. Thankfully they were thrilled and understood it was a gift, not a loan. I don't like doing loans.

My generosity has limits ... it comes with no strings attached or it doesn't come at all. I seldom buy lottery or raffle tickets. I won't play the game; don't like playing money games at all.

So volunteer me? Don't. And if I do help, don't ask me to keep track. I have better things to do.

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