My Thoughts: when the mood strikes.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

         Is it really Thursday already... another week coming to an end.  I want to give thanks for the man I work for who is full of sensitivity, generosity and friendship.  I'm blessed.

         I miss my grandsons, I miss my parents, I miss my classmates, my childhood, but I am thankful for those who are in my life now --- day-to-day --- helping to be honest with myself and honest with them. 

         I'm a little tired.  Anxiety and depression have tried to exonerate me from feeling, embracing the jewels and beauty that surrounds me.  Back pain has become an intolerable obsession.  My ethical desire to please and do the best work possible, has made me bereft of what is and who it is that surrounds me.  I've allowed myself to become blinded by the light of achievement though it has offered me no rewards. 

         Retirement and death awaits me.  I pray that in the sundown of my life, I will embrace the meaning and purpose of my existence, at the same time forsaking every distraction. 

         Hope your Thursday was well and may your Friday be even more existential and rewarding!