Life as we know it sucks

Is There Something?

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And the obsession continues.......

I've passed him a couple times since I last wrote and he always seems very aware of me. Even once I've pulled into work and he waves as he drives by. I wonder if he's infatuated with me as well? Or is it just me? Am I acting like a 13 year old again?

*whine* Does he like me? Will he ever like me? *end whine*

Something about his behavior, however makes me feel like he wishes he ran into me more often. He always remarks about our encounters even if it's days later.

Oh and let's not forget that for Christmas he bought me this little stuffed mouse with a green sweater. (He always wears green - every single time I see him). So, it's kind of a memento to be thinking about him?? I don't know. Plus he's bought me candy before. I just wonder CONSTANTLY if I'm reading more into it than I should!! It's frustrating.

It's even more so because I can't stop thinking about him sometimes. It's so weird. Here I have this great husband and I'm always thinking about some older guy...WAY older. Haha.

He's just so irresistibly good-looking to me though. And that effing accent!! Makes me obsess even more.

Ugh, I'm so confused! What does it all mean? Or does it mean anything at all? Am I making something out of nothing...as usual?

I wish I could read his mind sometimes so I could know and just get over this.

But I have to wonder what kind of person would single out another to buy gifts if there wasn't....something?