.:Dreams and Swords:.

Out of Sequence.

To get some of the lead out for my NaNo writing I've decided to go out of sequence. For me, the beginning is always the hardest part, and this beginning is kicking my ass. The starting scene plays out clearly in my head, but for some reason I can' seem to translate that into words.

Part of the fear I think is that you have grab your readers within this first section. If I can't get people interested in this first piece of the story, nobody will want to continue to read. And I want people to continue to read, lol.

The other part is telling the story right. The tentative title at the moment is "A Bullet With Butterfly Wings" (I apologize for stealing the title from the Smashing Pumpkins song). The reason why I picked this is that it conveys exactly what I want the readers to understand. This project has a lot of sarcasm, a lot of darkness to it. Even the elements of hope are barb-wired. But the hope in the end is one of redemption. There are many villains, many betrayers, and many sell-outs. Its free-for-all in terms of corruption. Yet there is hope for (almost) everyone.

Margot it a tight-lipped character to understand; she doesn't want to reveal to me everything going on in her head. She's been in such an "Out of Sight, Out of Mind" mentality for so long that being literally thrown back into the fray again is quite unnerving. The biggest part about her though is the wrath she holds inside. The one part that keeps getting thrust into my mind's eye is the scene where she almost loses her cool for the last time. She's full of unadulterated wrath, yet she persists that it doesn't exist until its too late to turn back.

There are other issues with the story at the moment, but there are plenty more days to worry about that. Suffice to say, there's progress. Just slowly.