Inner Scribbles

2010 Smoking Cessation

Okay, I put it off until today, but today has arrived. Which means I will put forth my best effort at not ever putting another cancer stick in my mouth.

I wish, above all things, I could easily change my negative mentality about my success. I am so not looking forward to this "resolution", as I have already prepared myself for failure. That is NOT the way to go into something hoping for positive results.

This is the primary reason I am going "public" with this. The more people I tell, the more I let down when I don't succeed. Therefore, the more shame I will feel. So, now I am leaving it to all of y'all to hold me to this. I have smoked for almost 30 years and I am not even 40 yet. I damn sure won't make it to 70, or even 60, if I keep sucking in the deadly nicotine.

I don't want to end up not being able to breathe. But is that thought enough to make me stop? Hopefully. In all honesty, I think my success depends on not wanting to shame myself.

I quit the dope, why shouldn't I be able to quit this too?

If anyone out there has any good suggestions to help me along, I am more than eager to hear them! Pass them all my way.

Happy, Happy 2010 to everyone. I hope it is filled with an abundance of "resolved resolutions"!!!!!