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So, where do I begin?

Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.

Henry James


I started this blog with the best intentions. I expect to change my life but where do I begin? I feel like a scared rabbit, trapped in a dark hole, covered with snow. I feel disoriented and helpless a lot of the time. How do I change this feeling and do something?

Well, I started....

I wrote my Dear Me letter for WDC. I, perhaps did not bear all of my soul but tried to be honest and whether or not I win the competition (which would of course be nice) or not, I will look at that letter at least once a week.

I have been trying to find a new job. I had to take leave, actually I guess i quit, my job at the local Dollar general when Kat went into the hospital. I know they do not need people. I called Walmart. they had wanted to hire me before the holidays but I had already had planned my trip to Cali. they are laying off people right now. I am afraid i will not be finding a job easily in this small town with this horrid economy. We should be moving soon to a larger town and i hope to get a job doing what i went to college for, but will take anything. I am about to go to the local McDonalds. I do not want to do the same work I did as a teen, but really, a job is a job? At least I am working at convincing myself of that.

I am starting to get very depressed sitting in my house and the weather is no help. It seems the sun never shines fully in this state. I miss having the warmth of the blazing sun. I think I will take a nap today and forced myself to go out tomorrow. Yes, i know i could forced myself today....but I am without the discipline to forced myself into action...today....

Kat is sick. She is running a fever and feels warm in the house which is registering at a lovely 65 degrees. I have to stay up long enough to let the heater repair man into my house. I hope he comes soon....

My gosh, I am just a ball of positivity today...